the vow

What promises have you made in the past? Who have you made commitments to? Were you able to honor them? Did you need to break them before somewhere along the line, things changed? I am very weary of making such promises. It is not because I can’t keep them, but rather because I know when I make a promise I have to keep it. Though, I believe the most important commitments we make aren’t to other people, but to ourselves. When I was at a very difficult point in my life, a rockbottom that seemed to never end (seriously it felt like forever), I was really uncomfortable with the amount of uncertainty that seemed to take over my life. It just seemed so out of my control, which it was because I don’t have a clue what is ever going on here, and I really wasn’t sure what I could possibly do about it. That day I knew that despite the fact that I have no control, no means of prediction, etc. about anything that could happen to me, the only thing that I could do was commit to myself.

At the time this was worded a bit differently, but about a year later I knew that what I meant was I was committing to Love*. What does that really mean? I think it means something different to everyone. If you were to commit to yourself for the rest of your life, what would that look like? I don’t mean it in a selfish way, as if you are the most important person in the universe. When I say I made the choice to commit to myself or to commit to Love, I believe that they are one in the same. I chose to commit to the highest vision of myself held in the field of Love always. For me, that always means acting from a place of Love no matter where or when I am. It doesn’t matter what you identify with, this works well for me and it is always open to everyone because Love is for everyone. It just depends on how you define yourself and the way you want to experience Life. The wonderful thing about committing to yourself as an expression of Love is when you commit to Love, you are committing to the Love within everyone else as well. Could you imagine a more powerful promise?

That seems like a pretty lofty promise right? Yeah, I thought so as well. Especially in a time when it seemed like I could barely keep myself together, I wasn’t sure if I was really in the position to be making such deep, complex promises. I actually believe this is the most simple promise you could make. Love is there for you in every moment. You always have the opportunity to choose Love and learn from it. If you commit to learning from the Love within you, you are always your own teacher. The wisdom manifests differently, but the core is always the same. Be open to it and it will find you. It is our most natural state of Being.

All you have to do is follow your heart as your personal inner compass. Now not only is Love you greatest teacher, but it is always your greatest healer. In those moments when you really need support, you can look to your conscious relationship with Love. Similarly to any relationship, all it takes is your energy and attention. This not only serves you but those around you. In tricky moments where you feel you need the support of Love, if there is another person involved then it is likely they need it too. The compassion, patience, and understanding is now available for everyone because it is beaming out of you.

Faithfulness to Love within yourself is the birthplace of endless curiosity. You are now open to all of the guidance Love may be able to provide for you. The more you are used to committing to Love, the more you are able to understand the depths of your own Being. Who are you as an expression of Love? How could you put that into words? How would you describe it? When you are in your expression of Love, what do you look like? What do you hear? What do you perceive? If you don’t know the answer to one of these questions, then that dimension of description isn’t for you. For example, Love doesn’t look like anything specific to me. I have no idea what it looks like and that is okay. Love has a specific feeling and knowing. I recognize it this way. There are no right or wrong ways. I like the idea of feeling and knowing because it allows me to be more imaginative. Explore the questions. Create your own. Approach it with an open mind. Open a dialogue with this part of yourself. Get to know what you are dedicating your life to. Question it. No matter what it is, if this is what your life revolves around, it deserves at least ten minutes of thought. As you give it more space, you gradually shift towards the Truth of yourself.

Dedication to Love won’t always look like what you expect. I used to be a very linear thinker and so this promise wasn’t always for me. It was always available, but I wasn’t open. It came to me when it felt right, as it likely does to everyone. For awhile, I had to be very careful and discerning when making decisions. I had to take extra time to distinguish between whether I was committing myself to my mind or my heart. It becomes more natural over time, though there are still instances where I have to double check. Trust me when I say that if you are able to make this conscious effort to welcome Love into every trench or crevice of your life, anything and everything is possible.

Making a oath to the Love within yourself is felt everywhere. Do not underestimate its strength. When you make this very simple, yet powerful commitment, it is reflected everywhere. You will begin to see it in places you didn’t even think it could show up for you. You will see it in those you didn’t even think you were able to. It is within all of the seen and unseen realms. All of the visible and invisible forces of Love are supporting you. Feel the collective strength in your soul. They all become witnesses and supporters of your sacred contract. When you observe your dedication everywhere as it is being reflected back to you, you will be inspired to continue in new ways. The Love you give comes back to you not necessarily because someone else is providing it for you, but because you choose to see it everywhere and feel its effects. As it becomes more and more integrated into your Being, you will not be able to forget about it or leave it behind. It is a part of you. The different dimensions of Love that support you are within you. Feel these infinite connections with your heart.

This promise has protected me through the darkest moments of my life. In times where I couldn’t conceive of making it to the other side, there was Love to protect me. I was protecting myself by allowing Love to come in. Those troublesome moments were then transformed into a realm of timelessness and limitlessness. You are able to bear witness to the narrative your mind is experiencing and how everything is going to be okay at the same time. The world may be crumbling but you can see it through the eyes of Love. There is so much support in opening yourself up to your Spirit. You are empowered because you are showing up for yourself.

This protection follows you everywhere. You may see unfavorable things happening all around you. However, your secret armor is knowing that you have dedicated your heart to something greater. You are free to roam this world with confidence, as this sacred agreement follows you everywhere.

The Truth of who you are shines when this oath is always being honored. Others will notice it too. The inner beauty of Love radiates from you core as you infuse every action, word, relationship, thought, intention, with its magnificence. All you need to do is choose it. I have been running with this one example of a promise, the vow to Love. Yours doesn’t have to be anything like this. I only ask you to reflect on what vows you are living by, consciously or unconsciously. They are powerful either way and have a great impact on your existence. Do not underestimate this. What are they? Note all of the details you can. Do they reflect the Truth of who you are? Do you want to continue with them? If so, you may feel called to recommit in your own way. If not, don’t be afraid to make a conscious shift. It can be extremely subtle, but its effects will not go unnoticed by you or your loved ones. Or toss it all away and create something entirely new. Do whatever feels right. Make vows you can keep.

New forms of Love will open themselves up to you everywhere. When you are first begin with this sacred contract, consciously notice them. Pay attention to even the most subtle forms. Allow that to inspire you to create more. Eventually your world be filled with its immeasurable, indescribable forces.

with love, katie

*Love/Higher Self/God/Source/Spirit/Creation/Consciousness/Unmanifested/The Eternal/Soul/Everything/Nothing/All That Is/Infinity/The Unknown/The Witness/Being/… you fill in the blank…

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